It’s an automatic response
like a calculated procedure:
when the easy times are gone
and the stress begins to cease ya,
wanna reach for that friend,
the one that lives inside an old mint box,
and let the hazing begin–
but trade your paddles for flint rocks.
Cuz i’m talkin hazy and lazy,
this dried flower that fades me.
At the right hour it takes me
to a place where grape nuts are gravy.
I mean it evens things out,
gives life a homogenous feel,
smoothes down the differences between
what I wish I had and what’s real.
It’s time to take a little break,
my head is full i need to vacate.
Get me to a place that’s anywhere
but where my face is.
It’s closer to my reach
than tryin’ to find a lovely beach.
At least for 40 minutes it’s a great stress relief.
Problems made
by the way you solve them.
Ignore that shit and it’ll start evolvin.
Don’t fix it if it hasn’t wrecked you,
you’ll never change and you should not expect to
You see, I’m making a spark.
It’s a sharp inhale out in the dark.
“Why are the lights out?” you said,
cause everyone else went to bed.
So now I’m smokin’ alone,
damn, this dependency has grown.
But if I hide it well enough,
maybe I won't even have to know.
And the whole time i’m thinkin’
“Chauncey there’s a better course of action,
ya know, there’s, like, exercise or meditation.
Just please find a better way of relaxin.
Or remember that your therapist said
that he could prescribe you some medication.
But don’t forget to call him your counselor
when you bring it up in conversation.”
Cuz god forbid I’d need help,
or admit that i’m terrified
just to talk to anyone else
I mean, it’s just easier to self-prescribe.
And then to wrap it all up inside,
the safest option is not emoting.
Just go on in silent suffrage,
or, shit, is that the thing about voting?
It doesn’t matter
whether it’s
the former or the latter.
Tethered to
a sinking brick ladder.
Even though you climb and you climb,
it’s a trick and you’ll drown given enough time.
credits
from Five Ounce Mouth,
released February 25, 2015
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